I am amazed about how God can remind me about my faith through people I look up to. I received this verse through text this morning and I cannot contain the joy I felt when I read it. For the past few days, I’ve been down because I feel like I’m in the wrong place for my internship & that I feel like the ‘dream’ I have for myself doesn’t feel like a dream anymore and this verse was perfect for that moment. The dreams that I thought I had are pretty much not the dreams God has for me. He simply gave me a glimpse of the dream I thought I had & made me realize that I’m not meant to be in that place. He wants to put me in a better place. He will, He promised. And His promise is the only thing I’m holding on to right now. ♥

• yeah, this is a bullet post
• i know, its boring
• but its all i can offer you guys for now
• i`m at work right now
• and it`s my last day here
• yeah, i`m at summit
• and no, it`s no fun, i tell you
• i actually regret applying here
• cause all i`ve been doing for the past 100 hours is 
• find suppliers
• complete a freaking directory
• and use the internet
• the only things i could write in my narrative report is that 
• i worked on the directory today and i got suppliers
• what grade would i get with that? 
• really, now?
• this job sucks
• i`m glad my other friends didn`t apply here
• they`re enjoying their sweet time at press cons & all that stuff
• and i`m stuck here, typing this 
• i just hope i get to transfer to manila bulletin soon
• and i wish sir art would give me a good job
• ugh
• i`m sorry blog, i haven`t been open with my feelings
• yeah yeah yeah
• my boyfriend & i broke up last sunday
• we broke up for like 10 hours
• & got back together monday morning
• all because we fought about my stupid past & how he can`t get over it
• but we`re back together now
• i`m hungry
• i finished my last task already
• i won`t be out til 7 pm unless i decide to continue tomorrow
• yeah i`ll get off at 3
• so i`d have 5 more hours for tomorrow
• or not
• i don`t know ughh
• what do you think? 
• i have nothing left to do here
• i want pizza
• & gummy bears
• i dreamt of harry styles last night
• it was funny
• they were here in the ph & my uncle was friends with their manager
• so i got to hang out with the whole band
• niall and louis were funny
• liam wasn`t there, i wonder why
• & i was laughing at zayn because he was so shy
• and of course, harry took me out on a date
• you know what happened after the date? 
• i woke up 
• i tried to sleep again but my watch showed 6:45
• and i had to leave for work at 7
• so i didn`t have a choice but to get up
• and not think of what i dreamt of until now
• hahaha
• harry was adorable in that dream
• and i remember saying ‘hi, zayn!’ and laughing afterwards
• i kinda wish it were true
• i know, i know
• i`m such a fan girl
• it`s my first time to dream about them, so yeah, it`s so weird
• i don`t know what to say anymore
• my boyfriend`s at church
• acting for the little kids
• & as much as i want to be there
• i can`t
• this job sucks (yeah, i said that again)
• i wanna go home
• kbye

I’m too early for work & I’m too shy to go over my boss’ cubicle to report this early. So I’m just gonna update you guys about my life so far: 

• I’ve only completed 13 hours and 30 minutes in my required 200 hours. How awesome is that? I’m days behind my schedule. I’m supposed to finish at May 20-ish, now I’m gonna finish at May 29-ish. 
• I’m gonna miss teaching at church. The vacation bible school starts at May 7 and I’m here in this office, listing down numbers and addresses for a directory. But I guess, my school goes first. As soon as I get to finish this, the earlier I get to serve more. 
• My boyfriend & I watched The Vow last night & I’m gonna post my favorite lines in the movie later when I have time. I know I’m months late in watching (haven’t seen The Hunger Games as well, boo me) but its better late than never. :-)
• I have this huge crush on Harry Styles. Yes, even my boyfriend is jealous because Harry’s face is on my Twitter account. Yeah, I’m a Directioner. So what.
• Harry Styles & my boyfriend share the same name. So since yesterday, I’ve been addressing him as Harry with a fake British accent. They’re both named Harold… but he hates being called Harry. :-)
• I realized that I’m not fit for office work. Before, I admired people who worked in offices, sitting around in their cubicles and all that stuff - well, guess what, it’s boring. No wonder I get headaches every now and then, I’m in front of this computer all day. I’m fit for travelling & all that stuff, never office work. Never.
• It’s already 10. I’ve to start working. Bye for now. 

• By God’s grace, I’m alive and kicking. :)
• Love month passed by so quickly that I didn’t even notice it was Valentines not until my boyfriend came over and gave me roses. And the only ‘gift’ I could give him was a blog post. I am so getting him a special one next year (and yes, kami pa rin nun, God-willing!). 
• Our final thesis proposal defense was a success. Although we have very, very minimal revisions to do, our initial grades, both in the output and the oral presentation was, well, high enough. I’m really, really thankful for those who prayed with me. (And yup, kudos to my thesis partner who did almost all the talking, Chester.) 
• There’s a probability that I will fail Statistics but I’m not giving up yet. I can’t and I have no plans on taking this in the summer because I’ll be pre-occupied by my internship by then. So yes, I have to pass this subject this semester. #focusmore #ajaness
• My best friends (Micah & Jissel) and I are planning on printing a “Keep Calm and Ajaness” shirt. We got the term ‘ajaness’ from the Korean expression, ‘aja aja’ which means ‘fighting’. The three of us are Koreanovela fans. :)
• I guess I got the internship! Summit Media’s just asking for the endorsement letter from my school then I’m all good. GOD IS SO AWESOME! :)
• AND GOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN GRACIOUS. :-) But I’m glad I’ve been receiving His extra attention for the past weeks although I know I have His eyes all the time but its just so different right now. So grateful that I am His daughter. ♡
• I have neglected photography and writing for a long time now and it’s sad. Although I’m investing more time in my ministry at church through singing, I miss taking photos and writing cheesy stuff for my own sake. I’ll get back into both of them when I have free time. :)
• Semester’s gonna end in 22 days! I have to focus on my studies more. I’m just praying that God will help me get through junior year. They say its the most crucial year in college. #Godisincontrol
• I’m learning a lot about my Heavenly Father and it’s amazing. I’m praying that He will give me enough courage to share to my friends. #soon #Godwilling
• #trust #serve #believe #forgive ♡