Back for good. ♥

It’s been half a year since I last posted something on this little place. And I guess.. I will always come back to the place where I first started. Although this place is currently a mess with all the re-blogs, random posts with no tags and all that stuff, I still love it to bits and never will I try to let go of it again. I guess it was just right that I didn’t delete it.. at least, I have something to come back to. 

So while I was away, these happened.. 

• I finally conquered college. When I started this blog, I was a freshman and now, I am officially unemployed but God has been very gracious. Life is still amazing despite unemployment. :-)
• Mama broke two bones in her ankle when we were in Silang a month ago. But thank God, she’s doing fine now. 
• I kept a little blog for a while. eighteendaysaway. It had 50+ followers but I never really felt like they were interested with the things that I posted. So yeah, that’s basically why I went back here. Nikilosophy will always be home. ♥
• I recently volunteered for DVBS. I was a dance teacher! I, myself, could not believe I was assigned in music but I survived. The kids were so makulit but praise God, we were able to handle them. 
• I turned twenty two days ago. But I still feel like I’m thirteen, or twelve, perhaps. 
• I am actually wondering why I took up Journalism… when I hate writing news articles. #ironic #weird

So right this day, I am clueless as to where I am going to start or what I am supposed to do with my life. Nevertheless, I still am happy about what life has been bringing me. Joyful, even. ♥

So hello, Tumblr! I am back here. FOR GOOD. 

*no more turning back this time*

So…. I’ve decided.

To come back here. ♥

ten things to ten people

• i can never thank you enough for the love you have been giving me and i am terribly sorry if i can’t equally give back what you have been showering me with. thank you for endlessly being patient with me, you do know that i am trying my best to be the best for you as well. i love you, i really do. 
• i do not like how you treat me when you are not in the mood. i dislike your perspective on things - considering the fact that you are one of my closest and very old friends, what is really happening to you? to us? we used to be that inseparable and our relationship used to bloom so well. i feel like we are making our insecurities hinder our friendship. i know i am trying but why are you centering on your insecurities? you are way better than you think you are. srsly.
• you inspire me so much. i admire your sense of responsibility and your eagerness to finish things on time. i wish i was like you. to me, you are perfect. no joke. any guy would be blessed to have you. 
• i wish you were still here. i miss you, so so much.
• you will get past through these problems! more over, your eye operation this week. i have faith in you. cast all your anxieties to the Lord. you will get by! 
• i am happy for you. really, really happy. genuinely happy for you. i pray that things will get better for you and that you will fully abide in the Lord. thank you for being happy for me as well, and for accepting my kasintahan as he is.  i love you, dad. 
• i wish i had your singing voice. 
• thank you for putting up with my temper ever since i was a kid. i know i always fail you but do know that i am trying even if it is not obvious. thank you being for being the mother i always needed. i love you, ma. 
• i wish you were real. 
• thank You for the life you have blessed me with. i am not a good daughter to You, i know that. forgive me if i have failed you but You know my heart, You know that i am sorry. i love You, Father. and i am not ashamed. 

I was on the verge of listing all the people, places, things, events that have inspired me (because Mags insisted that I do one list since another person asked me to) but I couldn’t sum everything up in one inspiration list because I realized that they’re a lot. 

So to the person who asked me to list down my inspirations, this is what I have for you now. 

Life is my inspiration.