In Sync

I have been improving this amazing habit of waking up at 7 a.m. just to read and digest God’s Word and so far, the talks I’ve had with God - no matter how striking and piercing they are in my life - are just amazing and His timing is really perfect!

I remember a quote from Neal Maxwell and I quote “Faith in God includes faith in His timing.” and everytime I read the Love Letters He has for me, instead of closing it because I’ve been badly hit in the gut, I continue reading and accept everything with an open mind & an open heart.

If you have been reading my blog, you’d notice that I have been spiritually down for the past months due to what has been happening in my life (my relationships & my ministry). I’d like to think of it as a test of my own faith because I could say that I have improved (a little bit) and yes, I am boasting because the Lord has been very, very gracious and patient with me.

And here’s what I’ve been learning/reminded of, so far:

•”People who accept discipline are on the pathway to life but those who ignore correction will go astray.” -Proverbs 10:17 - This hit me so hard when I did my first morning quiet time. Really, I’ve been neglecting all the encouragements/lessons God has been giving me through the people around me but I can’t believe that one sentence could hit me so hard. The Lord is amazing!!

•”God’s power is made perfect in weakness” -2 Corinthians 12:9b - His grace is sufficient and my weaknesses won’t make God love me less. I am honored, and I am loved.

•God’s wonderful grace doesn’t mean we should keep on sinning but rather, sin should have no power over us anymore because Christ has already redeemed us.

•Obeying God will lead you to righteous living.

•You are alive to God through Christ.

•As a servant of Christ, I must be nourished and trained in God’s Word so that I will be able to fulfill the mission God has given me.

•God should be the center of my worship. Not the songs, not the messages and most importantly, not the people around me. I should acknowledge that God is the Only Source of my knowledge. Refocus!

•”Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them.”

•God will reward me with progress and that I should keep in tune with God’s Word for the benefit of my own salvation and for those who will witness my life.

•”…what is important is faith expressing itself in love.” -Galatians 5:6

My deepest struggle was that I found it hard to love others and I compared myself to a lot of people who have greater faith than mine but God has reminded me that He should be the center of my life, not the people around me. And if God loved even the criminals in His time then I should learn how to love even those who are hard to love.

My boyfriend and I have been improving in our faith (and in our relationship as well). For some of you, specifically those on Twitter, might have noticed that there are people who wanted us to break up because they told us that it “hinders” our relationship with God but after weeks of thinking and praying about it, we have been doing simultaeneous devotions & we have been praying together. And so far, the walk has been amazing! I don’t want to prove anybody wrong but I’m just gonna leave everything to God.

Life has been extremely amazing, I tell you. I pray you’d get to experience all of this as well. May God bless you and keep you. :)

“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” -2 Corinthians 12:9♥

Surrendering all my worries, my doubts, my fears and my weaknesses. We can do this, Lord. ☼

Verse for the week: Philippians 4:13♥

“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.”

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Nope, I can’t do this on my own. My knowledge, wisdom (teehee, if I do have it), skills & talents all come from Him. I know I haven’t been a good daughter to my Heavenly Father but I know He’s helping me try. And just when I’m about to give up, a voice starts to whisper in my ear saying, “Hold on a little longer, anak. We can do this.”

May His will be done in my life. ♥

in which i try to be myself real self

while i`m writing this, i`d like you to know that i do want to get better at everything.

there`s no other outlet wherein i could vent these thoughts but here. and i am confident that my God can read every word that`s written in this blog.

i may seem like i`m the holiest and most religious-bible-quoting person around here but i am not nor do i want to be called such. i have been thinking about my personal spiritual growth in Christ Jesus and man, i tell you, it`s extremely hard to be in sync with Him. i`ve been trying my best to be an example to other people but in the end, i become less of what Christ is and i adapt to whatever the world has and for a Christian who grew up inside the confines of a religious place, i am not what you expect me to be.

my deepest struggle is that i compare myself to what other`s have already attained in their faith. sure, i play keys in the praise and worship band and i used to sing but as much as i don`t want to admit this but my heart isn`t in sync with God`s and just the thought of it bothers me a lot. and one more thing, my head and my feet are up in the clouds. humility, yep, that`s another struggle. if i could just cry all these out right now, but i can`t..

i don`t like to be called holy because i do not deserve it. i don`t even deserve the grace God has been showering me with while i write this.

to end this, i`m praying that things will get better for me. i know and i am deeply hoping that God will answer my prayers. and as my life verse proclaims, “but as for me, i watch in hope for the Lord, i wait for God, my Savior, my God will hear me.”

i`m not the best person right know and i just wanted you all to know. kinda sucks for nikilosophy, right?

hoping for the best in life,
niks x

unkaglen:

Christianity is not a belief system.
Christianity is how I got rescued from being lost in darkness for all eternity.
Christianity is how I was sought by God, ransomed, and freed.
Christianity means I owe God everything. And more. So I’ve given Him myself.

Christianity is not a religion.
Rules and rituals had nothing to do with my rescue.
I was ransomed by the blood of the only Son of God Himself.
Rules and rituals did not save me, and they can’t keep me saved.

Christianity is what I do.
In ancient days, sometimes when a slave was freed, he decided to stay with his master anyway.
That slave would press his ear to the doorpost and his master would pierce his ear.
This would tell the world: I am free, but I choose to serve.

Pierce my ear, oh God.
Let me dwell in your house, and show you my thanks.
This is what a Christian is.
It’s not just something I chose to believe in, it’s the life I live in my Master’s house.

“It is better to be slow-tempered than famous; it is better to have self-control than to control an army” -Proverbs 16:32

Oh Lord, thanks for this verse. You really have awesome timing. 

#MakeJesusFamous not because He’s trending but because you accepted Him as your personal Lord & Savior. ♡

because it’s the most important thing you could do. :-)

Jesus is what matters most. These Bible verses don’t mean a thing if you don’t have Jesus in that heart of yours.